my car :(

someone hit my car earlier tonight. this makes me sad :( I no longer have a back bumper...
they hit on the driver side and scratched all the way down the side, Aaron was on that side in the back. He is okay, it just scared him, and he yelled at the lady (even though is was not english, he still yelled). I will post a picture tomorrow of my poor, tacky looking car :(

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Rough day, hopefully better tomorrow

Aaron has been sick all week- well pretty much sick for 6 weeks off and on with ear infections. Monday he started antibiotics again for his ears and usually by the second day his symptoms start improving. But, they weren't this time. Last night he was coughing so bad from all the congestion that he threw up. It's not real fun to clean that up and change bed sheets at 3am... My mom has kept him each day this week because she has paid sick days at work, and I don't. So, after I got off work today I went to pick up Aaron. His fever seemed high, his eyes looked terrible, still whiny, wouldn't eat all day. I decided to take him to minor emergency (since doctors weren't available- which children ALWAYS get sick on the weekends). This time instead of ear infections causing the congestion, it was congestion causing ear problems. He has bronchitis, eustachian tube dysfunction (which I really don't know what the heck that is, but associated with sinuses and ear stuff), and upper respiratory infection once again. The doctor changed his antibiotic and is going to have him take a steroid for a few days too- just happens to be the same one that caused my dad to have cancer, so I'm trying not to think about that and freak out. His fever is 103 now, but I already started him on the medicine so hopefully it will kick in. Needless to say, I don't think I'll be sleeping much tonight. I hate when he is sick. I hate when he has to have breathing treatments all the time. I hate when I can't just hold and kiss him and make it all better like I feel I'm supposed to be able to do as 'mama'.

Tagged!

8 things you've always wondered about me!
I was tagged by Sarah.

8 Favorite Restaurants:
1. Babe's Chicken House
2. BJ's
3. Villa Grande
4. Olive Garden
5. Texas Roadhouse
6. Miguelito's
7. El Pasano's (the hole in the wall taco stand in the very scary part of Dallas that I love so much)
8. III Forks (but it is like 100 per person, so I only ate there when my old company paid for it)

8 Things that Happened Today:
1. took Aaron to my mom's house
2. went to work
3. went insane because I had 2 3yr old classes combined since their teacher was out
4. ordered Pizza Hut since I forgot my lunch today
5. talked to the lawyer several times
6. picked Aaron up from my mom's
7. got gas at Kroger
8. this blog

8 Things I Look Forward To:
1. Sleeping
2. Payday
3. The weekend
4. Josh coming back home after Christmas
5. Signing divorce papers tomorrow
6. Divorce being final in February
7. Being happy
8. Having more children one day

8 Things I'm Scared Of:
1. Spiders
2. Snakes
3. Car wrecks (I've been in way too many)
4. Not being healthy enough to have more children
5. Finding out all the medical stuff that's wrong with me when I finish all the tests
6. Failing at the things God wants me to accomplish or has planned for me
7. Not being a good enough mom to Aaron
8. Not finding love again

8 Things I Wish For:
1. Aaron to be taken care of and given all the things he needs and some of what he wants
2. That I may teach Aaron about our Lord, so he will accept Him into his heart when he is older
3. my own house
4. an suv
5. more children
6. a better paying job
7. Aaron to not be sick all the time
8. better health

8 Things I Watch on TV:
1. General Hospital
2. One Life to Live
3. One Tree Hill
4. 90210
5. Friends
6. Ace of Cakes
7. Property Virgins (I want to be one of those people)
8. My House is Worth What?

And, I tag everyone who didn't do it already which I think is only
Lyndi
Laura
April

Addictions and updates

Addictions-

1. Internet- my internet has not worked in a week and a half and it drove me absolutely insane! I think I still tried about every couple of hours 'just to see' if it started working again. I HATED not being able to check myspace, facebook, and especially blogs!

2. My cell phone (texting to be more exact)- I send probably 100 texts a day. It's rarely ever anything important, just stupid stuff I think of throughout the day that I send to a couple of my closest friends that I'm sure get annoyed but never say anything ;)

3. DVR- Once you have a dvr that automatically records everything you love to watch, you can't live without it. That also stopped working this week for a couple of days and it was terrible. Aaron kept yelling 'OH NO!' at the tv because he was use to watching cartoons in the morning while I get ready for work and before bed. He was upset that it didn't work.

4. FRIENDS the show- I can watch it over and over and over and quote every episode. Love it!

5. Aaron- This week a couple of days I found myself missing Aaron. I am directly across the hall from the room he is in at the church, but I missed him. I checked on him about every half hour which is crazy. I knew he was fine. I just really wanted to hold and love on him even more than usual.



Okay- anyone who hasn't done this yet- list 5 addictions and pass it on.



Updates-
Things are going really well considering my impending divorce. I hesitate to post some things that are going on just yet. I will share soon. I know that some of it will seem crazy and make me seem like an awful person or something. So, I will wait. Please pray for me and things that I'm struggling with. Oh, and my court hearing is Friday the 19th if you could all be praying for that too! I am not really worried, but it includes my son's life so I am at the same time. I am not even sure if Adam will show up though. He has only seen Aaron on Thanksgiving day in the last 5 weeks so I don't know how much he cares about what happens in court. That makes me sad. In my eyes, Aaron deserves love from everybody! Especially his own father.

Tag!

1. Two Names You Go By: Joyia and Mama
2. Things You Are Wearing Right Now:Pink Aero shirt and Victoria's Secret Jeans
3. Two Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment: An SUV and my own house
4. Two people who you look up to: My Dad for always doing everything he could while he was here to protect us, and Taylor for her Amazing strength
5. Two things you did last night: Text messaged as usual and checked messages of MySpace and Facebook
6. Two things you ate yesterday: I don't really remember, but I do know I ate kit-kats- so healthy!
7. Two people you last talked to: April Anderson and her parents Jim and Patty
8. Two Things you're doing tomorrow: Going to Carrollton to my uncle's house and EATING :)
9. Two longest car rides: Texas to Florida, and Texas to North Carolina
10. Favorite Holidays : Christmas and Easter
11. Favorite Vacations : Arkansas and Florida
12. Last trip: I guess a couple years ago with Alicia when we went to San Antonio-just so we could go to the zoo haha
13. Two favorite beverages: Dr.Pepper and IBC Root Beer

Tag you are it:
April Faulkner
Lyndi
Laura

UGHhhhhh

I'm tired of taking medicines! I'm tired of taking as many pills everyday as my elderly granparents! I'm young, I should be healthy. I want to feel healthy. I want to have energy to enjoy my precious son while I have the chance. I want to be able to accomplish the things I should and the things I once had planned. I want my 10 medicines to be cheaper so that when I am low on money I don't have to pick and choose which ones I refill and which ones I can put off a while. When I take them I don't just want them to do whatever they do to make my body work, but to actually make me feel better. And, then I just feel guilty for not feeling as thankful as I should for the things I do have. But, God, I just really want to get better. I pray that one day I won't have to take so much drugs all the time. I hope that the ones I do take are not just for helping for pain each day, but that they will help correct problems. I know that one day, hopefully not soon (because I want more time with Aaron), I will not be sick or in pain in Heaven. I look forward to that Day.